Squirting...

This is a touchy subject for me. I have a member who I adore who takes very good care of me and I always have fun with. He has been taking the time to teach me to squirt. I have very intense orgasms in general but until I met him never even attempted squirting. Several times he has walked me through finding my gspot and teaching me how to rub it and make it swell. During one of his coaching sessions with me about a year ago I squirted. I was shocked. The feeling was very strange and it made me feel very strange afterward. It felt good and very relaxing just strange. So he has been in several times since then and I want to please him every time and make myself squirt for him but I get so stressed out trying to do it and I try too hard and forget to breathe that I can't cum at ALL. He understands that I am trying very hard for him and so he lets me get myself off using my dildo and things my usual way after my unsuccessful attempts at squirting. I will NOT give up though. I will teach myself to do it. I will squirt again! LOL :)